Monday, February 20, 2012

Thankful Grieving

I don't feel like celebrating or doing much of anything, but I have to keep going on, one foot in front of the other, one whispered, choking prayer after another. I had hoped to share happy news here, but instead I only have grief. This weekend I lost the baby I was carrying for 8 weeks. I have a Drs appt. today to see what else needs to be done. I am heartbroken...heartsick. And yet....I have to keep being thankful. I have 3 amazing, beautiful children that are in my arms, an amazing, wonderful supportive husband and friends that love me. I feel waves of such thankfulness that my cross is not much bigger and tragic and then waves of deep sorrow for all that was so wanted and hoped for. I am not asking why, that question never gets answered and really isn't the point...I am just asking to accept and to joy in the blessed life I still do have. I'd so appreciate prayers if you think of me...

7 comments:

Joyce said...

Leah, your post is so touching, and my heart goes out to you. I hope you receive some information from the doctor that helps you cope with your difficult situation. And, give those three blessings in your life a hug--they may just be the best at consoling your for your loss.

Taheerah (*LittleMissT*) said...

oh my God Leah, I'm so sorry to hear your sad news and so sorry for your loss. I think the way you're looking at things and keeping going is so inspiring. Wishing you the strength to cope and keep moving forward.

CLM-cindylu2u said...

My heart breaks for you and your family, so sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers.
Cindy

Stephanie said...

Leah, I have been thinking of you often and sending lots of prayers. Wrap your arms around those 3 bundles of joy and grieve when you need to. Much hugs coming your way.

Cassie said...

I'm so sorry, Leah. I'll be praying for peace for you and your family.

Kristina said...

Sorry for not visiting more often, but please know that I think of you more then the times I take to stop and write something.
I will be praying for your healing an acceptance with the loss.

Gentle Hugs,
Kristina

Kim said...

I am so sorry for your loss and haven't been around much lately. I will be keeping you and your family in my prayers. Sending you loving thoughts and hugs.